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When I was a teenager,
I was “introverted.” Today, I’d be diagnosed
with Social Anxiety Disorder. But in Far Rockaway High School,
I made friends. I didn’t exactly go to parties, but I linked
up with Lew and Rick and Lenny.
Lew was a serious, roly-poly guy who belonged to the Future Doctors
of America, Rick was height-impaired, brilliant at science, and
sardonic. Lenny was a gaunt, asthmatic man of the arts. We were
- well, we were the Goonies, only without girls.
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Lew and I played handball; Rick and Lenny didn’t even try.
Lenny would shudder the length of his emaciated frame. “This
is silly,” he cried. “I don’t need to be roasted
in the sun.” But Lew and I played, in the school yard of
P.S. 104, with a spaldeen. Until the mean kids came and said,
“Challenge for the court.” We tried hard, but it was
slaughter. The kids whipped the ball against the wall, and we
waddled around like anteaters.
After we were booted from the court, we’d walk down the
sloping block past dark summer trees, perspiration dripping down
our backs. We’d go to the candy store and I’d have
a coffee ice cream soda and a Drake’s coffee cake (never
spoiled my appetite for dinner).
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We were “eggheads.” We wore glasses
(does anybody say “four–eyes” any more?) and carried
“fag bags.” A “fag bag” was a briefcase,
the kind attorneys carry—though ours weren’t expensive.
Putting books into a briefcase was sensible, therefore uncool. Back
then, a boy was required to hold all of his books against his ribs
with an outstretched arm (no straps permitted). A girl cradled her
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While other teens were making out in knotty pine basements,
Lenny and I wrote an operetta about gypsies; I wrote the libretto
in longhand, on yellow lined paper. We met on the boardwalk to work
on the score. It was a bright day in March, with a stiff wind. Lenny
stalked into view, glasses glinting, coat flapping in the wind.
He carried armfuls of music paper. We stood by the railing and Lenny
looked intensely at the music, trying to find an aria. “It
goes from the bottom of the bass up to the top of the treble in
one phrase,” he said, and screeched it. “Nobody can
sing this,” I said. “So what?” he answered.
After our conference, Lenny and I went to Rick’s pink stucco
bungalow. There was a yard alongside the house, with brown grass,
a swing set caked with rust, and a tree snapped by a hurricane.
We knocked on the side door and Rick opened it, his Dalmatian
rearing up. Rick and Lew were having lunch— borscht made
pink by sour cream, and thick slices of pumpernickel. I was in
awe of Rick because his uncle edited Galaxy Science Fiction Magazine.
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a bulky machine with dials and toggle switches and an oscilloscope.
It was a digital computer Rick had built for a science project,
and it earned him a Westinghouse science scholarship. In the master
bedroom was a stereo setup, with a Rek-o-Cut turntable, reel to
reel tape deck and speakers. Using that equipment, the four of us
had recorded a satire of Stravinsky’s “Noah’s
Flood,” a dreadful ballet the composer had written for TV.
We listened to Beethoven’s Seventh and argued about which
was better, tape or records. Lew got serious when he argued, scowling
so his chin folded up. Understand that this was NOT the way normal
teenage boys in the early 1960s spent their free time! |
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Noah's Flood |
A year later, on a snowy December night, I
was visiting Lew when the bell rang. Lenny came in from the snow,
and it melted from his gray coat. His pants billowed over his boots.
Sadly, he told us he was going to work the next day. It didn’t
fit. Lenny was a gaunt composer who burned lobster red in the sun.
He’d gotten a holiday job in a stationery store. His mother
was sick and his father had ordered him to bring money into the
house.
When Lenny left, Lew put on the last side of Wagner’s Das
Rheingold and turned it up so the sound blasted. He sang Donner’s
call to the thunder. We talked about Shaw’s Man And Superman,
which we took as a manifesto. We talked about Nietzsche, and how
it was our duty to strive to become the Overman. Lew got intense
about it; his eyes glowed with belief.
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Shaw & Nietzsche |
There was a muffled thump under the floor. “That’s
the people downstairs banging up,” Lew said. He turned up
the sound on the portable phonograph. The banging got louder.
After the music Lew took down a can of ravioli and slopped it
into a pot (no microwaves yet). We heated it and poured yellow
garlic powder over it and ate it, until our mouths burned.
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Best Served With
Garlic Powder |
And so it went. Summers were best because we
rode our bikes on the boardwalk, or walked there at night, eating
frozen custard with butterscotch syrup then walking away from
the lights of the concessions, down the ramp and among the Wavecrest
Gardens apartment buildings where we declaimed from “Manfred”
and sang bits from HMS Pinafore.
The summer after my first year of college, I drove over to Lew’s.
We walked up to the boardwalk and watched the ocean shimmer in
the heat. The benches were filled with old people, men with green
sun visors and women with purplish hair. Lew was working on a
scraggly beard and wore Ben Franklin glasses. “Listen,”
he said. “Lise’s home today so you want to come up
with me?”
Lew was the betrayer of our clan. He liked rock music and had
a girl friend. He and Lise would sit on a wall at Brooklyn College
with the other radical kids, and carried signs in demonstrations.
Lew had decided not to be a doctor. He wanted to write poetry.
Rick, meanwhile, left Columbia. He didn’t want to build
computers. He wanted to compose and he was working on his second
symphony. He also had a long beard and was going out with an older
woman. Nobody had heard from Lenny.
A couple of decades later I met Rick for lunch at a Long Island
mall. He was teaching. In 2000, Lew found me on the Internet.
We met in Manhattan and he and his wife and my wife and I clicked
and remain friends. Lew retired from a distinguished career as
a school librarian, and Rick retired from a successful teaching
career. Both are into photography. I found Lenny via Google. The
gaunt specter we assumed would perish of consumption had enjoyed
a career teaching Asian Religions, Sanskrit and Tibetan, and was
working on an English translation of Desideri’s Notizie
Istoriche del Tibet. A true champion of Nerd-dom!
I remained introverted throughout high school,
but those friendships got me out of my room, and let me know that
my oddball mind was not alone in the universe. Maybe it was this
connection that gave me the courage to take the next step.
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